I think if you did what you thought was right, then that's all you can ask of yourself. You tried your best, and sometimes that's all you can do.
[She sends another message.]
Is there anything I can do to help with what happened? It sounds like it's rather complicated, but if it's bothering you that much, then I'd like to help if I can.
Your father? If he's the same as the worlds I've learned about, then I've heard that he's the one in charge of the United Future movement. He's using the Metaverse to try to take control of the Diet.
[There's a pause before another message is sent.]
I also know that multiple Akechi-sans planned revenge against him, and are usually the Black Mask in other worlds. I don't know much else though, I'm sorry.
another analogue here, one who was under direct control by Shido. To the point he wasn't able to speak negatively about him, or acknowledge the Metaverse.
I wanted to help, remove the shit that Shido put in him to make him obey, but I did so without being able to ask him if he would even consent to that
and now he's pissed because he feels like we violated his mind and now I can't
help but feel like I've done the wrong thing
am I any different from people like fucking Maruki, I
I used to be so staunchly opposed to this shit
Did I change my mind because I genuinely thought this was the better option, or because 'my' Ren wanted me to agree with his methods, so that's how Maruki created me to think
[There's a noticeable lull before the next message. She seems to be thinking heavily on how to respond.]
Phoenix-san, you're not the same as Dr. Maruki. Even if it wasn't ideal, you didn't do this to inflict your own views without caring about his own freedom. That was what you told me about Dr. Maruki, wasn't it? He imposed his own views onto others without considering their feelings? You didn't do that, you went into this with his freedom as the main concern.
I can't fault you for doing this, knowing what the problem was. I probably would have done the same in your shoes. I would have wanted him to be free from that, too. I can understand why he's angry as well, and why this is so complicated.
[There's another small pause before another quick message is sent.]
Please, trust in yourself, Phoenix-san. You aren't Dr. Maruki's pawn or some dream of Ren-senpai's. You're real, and your thoughts and feelings are real.
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Date: 2024-04-13 07:35 pm (UTC)From:[She sends another message.]
Is there anything I can do to help with what happened? It sounds like it's rather complicated, but if it's bothering you that much, then I'd like to help if I can.
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Date: 2024-04-13 07:50 pm (UTC)From:how
much do you know about my biological father, incidentally
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Date: 2024-04-13 08:01 pm (UTC)From:[There's a pause before another message is sent.]
I also know that multiple Akechi-sans planned revenge against him, and are usually the Black Mask in other worlds. I don't know much else though, I'm sorry.
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Date: 2024-04-13 08:58 pm (UTC)From:another analogue here, one who was under direct control by Shido. To the point he wasn't able to speak negatively about him, or acknowledge the Metaverse.
I wanted to help, remove the shit that Shido put in him to make him obey, but I did so without being able to ask him if he would even consent to that
and now he's pissed because he feels like we violated his mind and now I can't
help but feel like I've done the wrong thing
am I any different from people like fucking Maruki, I
I used to be so staunchly opposed to this shit
Did I change my mind because I genuinely thought this was the better option, or because 'my' Ren wanted me to agree with his methods, so that's how Maruki created me to think
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Date: 2024-04-13 09:18 pm (UTC)From:Phoenix-san, you're not the same as Dr. Maruki. Even if it wasn't ideal, you didn't do this to inflict your own views without caring about his own freedom. That was what you told me about Dr. Maruki, wasn't it? He imposed his own views onto others without considering their feelings? You didn't do that, you went into this with his freedom as the main concern.
I can't fault you for doing this, knowing what the problem was. I probably would have done the same in your shoes. I would have wanted him to be free from that, too. I can understand why he's angry as well, and why this is so complicated.
[There's another small pause before another quick message is sent.]
Please, trust in yourself, Phoenix-san. You aren't Dr. Maruki's pawn or some dream of Ren-senpai's. You're real, and your thoughts and feelings are real.
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Date: 2024-04-13 11:18 pm (UTC)From:but thank you, Sumire. It means more than you know.
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Date: 2024-04-13 11:32 pm (UTC)From:[She doesn't press further, but she empathizes to a degree. Always hard to get the negative thoughts to stop...]