Allow me to be perfectly clear before I say anything else: I am still mad at you. I do not forgive you, or anyone else involved with the operation. It was unpleasant, to say the least, and a violation of my very mind. It continues to be so, and I am unsure if it will ever stop feeling like that. As I have come to understand, you have gone through something similar in your own universe, before you died, so I'm certain you know why I cannot simply forgive and forget.
However.
Our last interaction ended regrettably, not in the least because I was unable to control my emotions. I should not have called in a favor, only to then berate you for doing exactly as I asked. That was irrational on my side, and certainly not helped when Morgana butted in.
Now that I have had time to think, I suppose I am grateful that Shido's bug is gone, in part thanks to your plan. I understand that you, as well as the others, were trying to help me.
This does not take away that I was deceived, cornered, and was hacked like a common computer. Regardless of what Futaba has said, her files feel like an intrusion. A thorn I am unable to remove, so to speak. I cannot trust that they won't be exploited at one point or another. Had I had the choice, I would've liked to know what was going to happen, even though it was impossible. My luck, isn't it?
I cannot blame you, or any of the others, for doing what you did. I was dangerous, and I needed to be dealt with, for the good of everyone here. For my own good. I cannot say it has not felt good to be in charge of my own actions again, but I can only wonder how long it will last. I am wary to trust anything done to me by outsiders.
It has not been a pleasant two weeks for me, but I figured I owed you a message regarding what happened.
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About a week after Shido's ship...
Date: 2024-04-16 09:13 am (UTC)From:However.
Our last interaction ended regrettably, not in the least because I was unable to control my emotions. I should not have called in a favor, only to then berate you for doing exactly as I asked. That was irrational on my side, and certainly not helped when Morgana butted in.
Now that I have had time to think, I suppose I am grateful that Shido's bug is gone, in part thanks to your plan. I understand that you, as well as the others, were trying to help me.
This does not take away that I was deceived, cornered, and was hacked like a common computer. Regardless of what Futaba has said, her files feel like an intrusion. A thorn I am unable to remove, so to speak. I cannot trust that they won't be exploited at one point or another. Had I had the choice, I would've liked to know what was going to happen, even though it was impossible. My luck, isn't it?
I cannot blame you, or any of the others, for doing what you did. I was dangerous, and I needed to be dealt with, for the good of everyone here. For my own good. I cannot say it has not felt good to be in charge of my own actions again, but I can only wonder how long it will last. I am wary to trust anything done to me by outsiders.
It has not been a pleasant two weeks for me, but I figured I owed you a message regarding what happened.
That is all.